The new me: A hungry Sleepopatamus

Last night, the only thing I could stomach for dinner was Taco Bell.

A strange subtle version of nausea kicked in for me on Friday. I haven’t thrown up nor have I been tempted to, but the thought of most foods disgusts me.ย  My paleo-ish ways have been thrown out the window for grilled cheese, mac n cheese, Taco Bell, and chicken soup. I can’t help but wonder if this is psychosomatic. Am I conjuring cravings for root beer and Cheesy Gordita Crunches because I just want to feel pregnant so bad? I wondered if it was the progesterone supplements, but I was supplement free for two whole daysย  while I waited for them to arrive from my specialty pharmacy. Perhaps the dip in hormones made me ill?

The reality is, however, is that I HAVE been feeling more pregnant than ever. After last time’s completely symptom free short lived pregnancy, this time, at 6 weeks, there’s a marked difference. There’s the mild nausea and aversions and there’s also the engorged boobs and pressure in my uterus and the exhaustion. I slept until 10:30 today and yesterday and the day before. Both days I took two hour naps too (gonna have to fight that urge today because I have work to do). I had a bit more spotting over the weekend, a watery brownish (yuck sorry), but it isn’t worrying me anymore. What can I do about it anyway? Absolutely nothing.

I’d like to take comfort in these symptoms, since they contrast so nicely to my last failed pregnancy, but we all know how that goes. Some miscarry with symptoms anyway.ย  There’s just no telling until my ultrasound on Friday. Either he’s growing or he’s not. Either there’s a heart beating or there’s not. Don’t I sound calm and zen like? Well I am in this moment for some reason. Maybe I’m on a carb high from the giant bowl of chicken noodle soup I just devoured.

Then there’s the second interview I have tomorrow for a regulatory compliance job for a different company I interviewed with last week. Would I love learning about the supplement industry? Yes. Would I love working in Compton Adjacent, with an hour long commute, making less than I feel I deserve? Not really. Especially with this weird nausea thing kicking in, I’m tempted to cancel this second interview. I’m just not sure that’s the right fit for me. Especially now. Maybe I’m meant to get better at penny pinching, while asking my current employer to give me more work at home projects. Ugh, I don’t know. I hate to pass up a good opportunity because I’m feeling weird right this second and then what if the weirdness and the pregnancy pass and I’m pissed because I didn’t seize the day. Though starting a new job immediately post mc doesn’t sound fun either.

Aren’t you glad you don’t have my over-analytic brain?

Well that’s the latest with me. Counting down the days until Friday and enjoying being pregnant while it lasts (hoping for 9 wonderful months of course). Now pass me a pillow and the macaroni and cheese please…

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  1. bloggerkuwait

    Aww the beginning of pregnancy is really difficult. I could barely eat anything, and kept losing weight. But I’m praying for not only a healthy heartbeat Friday, but the next beautiful 9 months to go by! The nausea will go away literally one day when you wake up. It was night and day, not even gradual. Keep us updated, but for now…happy symptoms to remind you there’s something beautiful growing in there!

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  2. cassiedash

    These symptoms sound like great news! Don’t over-analyze (like I’m one to talk!)…just enjoy them. So hopeful for your Friday u/s, friend! I have a good feeling about it. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. Daryl

    So excited for Friday!!! Your symptoms sound very familiar! I’ve had mild nausea all day today, but I had to eat something immediately to get any relief. As for the job, going through a second interview doesn’t mean you have to take the job if you decide you don’t want it. I say go for it!

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  4. SM

    I say, embrace the Cheesy Gordita! It’s what you want and it’s obviously what the little peanut wants too. I’ve got my fingers crossed so tightly for Friday!

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  5. GK

    Your symptoms sound like a great sign. Fingers crossed for Friday! If you can face it I would say go for the job interview. I really hope this pregnancy works out for you but i’ve had two miscarriages (one with really strong symptoms and one with none) so it will be good to keep your options open until you know a bit more about what is going on with this pregnancy. As you will know yourself so much can change in 4 weeks and you’ll have a better idea about where you are after Friday’s scan. Sending positive thoughts. I hope the next few days go quickly.

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  6. K

    Omg I had to have fountain root beer every day on the way to work lol. It helped w/ my nausea more than ginger ale. Ginger ale made me barf.
    GL w/ the job decision-that’s a tough one. I’ll be looking for your news on your u/s ๐Ÿ™‚

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  7. lamentingthelentil

    Your mild but present symptoms sound pretty much exactly like mine. Last night I ate a whole pizza from targ.et (with the briefly forgotten no-no of goat cheese ALL OVER IT). And I’ve eaten mac and cheese twice in the last week. And now you have me wanting a gordita. I’ll be thinking about you like crazy on Friday, but I will also be briefly out of the country and in a place with no internet connection, so I’m not sure I’ll be able to see how the outcome. Just know you’re in my thoughts!!!!

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